In high school I read the classic book, Gone With the Wind, several times. When the heroine, Scarlett O’Hara, faced problems she did not want to think about or deal with, she would brush it aside and say, “I will think about that tomorrow.” Only “tomorrow” never came. I found myself adopting that same attitude. When I was faced with my sin and emptiness I would brush it aside and say, “I will think about that tomorrow.”
Though I went to church as child, I drifted as an adult. My husband did not feel he needed church, so we rarely attended. When our children were growing up I felt they ought to be in church. I took them to Sunday School until they were old enough to be confirmed and then they chose not to go anymore.
“I effectively pushed thoughts about God and my sinful condition out of my mind, until my husband died.” I effectively pushed thoughts about God and my sinful condition out of my mind, until my husband died. Thinking I could fill the void in my life with religion, I started attending a Lutheran church with my neighbor. I soon became a member, joined the Altar Guild, helped take the collections, worked on the church newsletter, and helped clean the church. I was doing all these good works, so I thought, “I must be a Christian now.”
Though I started reading my Bible, I did not understand it. The first verse that really stood out to me and convicted me of my true condition before God was in the book of Deuteronomy. It read, “And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might.” I read the Ten Commandments and was challenged; they showed me that I was a sinner.
I wanted to understand the Bible better, so when I saw an ad on TV offering a free Bible study, I called and signed up. After I finished the correspondence lessons, I agreed to do a Bible study in my home with one of the ladies from the sponsoring church. I learned so much from these studies. Around that time I was also watching preaching on television and my heart was being touched. “I sensed that just repeating a prayer that the TV evangelist was putting on the screen would not save me.” I sensed that just repeating a prayer that the TV evangelist was putting on the screen would not save me. There had to be more to this matter of salvation.
One evening after watching another TV message, I began to pray, and I prayed for a long time. I poured out my heart to God, asking Him to give me understanding of the Bible, and to forgive me for my sins. All those hidden things that I had put aside to “think about tomorrow” began to come back to me, and I laid them out before the Lord. When I was finished praying, I sensed a peace and forgiveness that I had never sensed before. As I continued reading the Bible I found I was understanding it for the first time.
At my next Bible Study lesson, which was about salvation and forgiveness, I realized that I had been saved that night when I confessed my sin and surrendered my will to God. The Lord had forgiven me and taken all those things I had put aside to “think about another time” and put them where I will never have to think about them again. In Micah chapter 7, verse 19, the Word of God says, “He will have compassion upon us; he will subdue our iniquities; and thou wilt cast all their sins into the depths of the sea.“
I began to notice changes in my life immediately. God began to clean up my language and gave me a purpose for living. I started attending Lehigh Valley Baptist Church and loved it. The teaching, preaching, and fellowship fed my hungry soul.
” Looking back at 64 wasted years without the Lord, I wish I had been saved sooner.” Looking back at 64 wasted years without the Lord, I wish I had been saved sooner. However, I am thankful for the Lord’s mercy in saving me and changing my life. The Lord can change your life too. But don’t wait like I did. The Bible says in Isaiah chapter 55, verses 6 and 7, “Seek ye the LORD while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near. Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the LORD, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon.” Also in 2 Corinthians 6:2, “Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.“